October is coming to an end and my god everything is going so fast. School has officially started and i must say I am so overwhelmed by everything.
- Once we started school, we have 2 project works due on the third and forth week of school
- Personal matters pops up
- I have a skin issue
- I look like a druggie cos i have not been able to get enough sleep
It might not look a lot but that was all in a week. I’ll do anything to get my holidays back. ANYTHING! i just wanna laze around in bed and hang out with my cat 24/7.Not only did a lot of things happen but a lot of things have changed. I have changed. I feel like i have aged 5 years or more after facing my problems. I feel super mature now. But i think that came with a price cos now i have the “i don’t care what you do” attitude. Then again i have always had that attitude but now it has gotten worse. I’m rambling. The point is i can give super harsh comments and i have terrible mood swings now. I’ll get by it so it’ll be alright~! I shall not really elaborate on the problem i faced recently cos I’m not really ready to talk about it in public. But when i’m ready, I will tell. Anyways it has really opened my mind and made me realise a lot of things. And i took it all as a lesson and i must say i’ve learnt a lot from it. I have improved my decision- making skills, made me have an even more open mind and i also learnt how to deal with certain matters more maturely and be more level headed.
It’s like a roller coaster. Lots of ups and downs. I shall not lie, i’ve had many downs. However i’m happy now. Been happier but i’m getting through things really well. I feel like i can do anything. I’m happy. And i’ll stay this way.
It is October now. Can you believe how fast this year is passing by. Holidays are gonna end soon and i will soon have to snap back to reality and face school once again. Even though i’m don’t want school to start but a small part of me does. Mainly because i get to see my friend which is always awesome. Maybe a fresh new semester is like a fresh new starts. something like the start of the year. Something new is gonna happen and you know big things are gonna happen. Great things in fact. But as usual, this will only last for a couple of weeks then boom! You wish your holidays will come back.
But for now, I’m enjoying my holidays as much as possible. Going out with friends and someone more special than a friend…… heheheh! also i worked FOR F1! not really for F1 but under their food and beverages segment. It was a great experience and it was so fun working with my friends at the wee hour cos we took the midnight shift. Best shift in the world! love it! especially when you have friends working with you. got to see Jennifer Freakin’ Lopez and she was amazing! Like how can someone have so much energy to perform for so long and in heals! wow!
Anyways, a lot has changed since the last time i blogged. One of the big changes is having someone really special to me. Now, i have gain so many new friends. My poly friends, and friends outside my poly. These are some of the best people i have ever met and i am so blessed to have met them and for them to accept me as a friend is really a big deal to me cos they really treat me well. It just warms my heart. Love you guys so so much.
But i have also lost friends that were very dear to me and they were once really really close friends to me. It is still hard for me to move on from it and try to forget it. They were such good people to me and i was really blessed to have them in my life. But i guess it was not meant to be. And sometimes you have to let it go. Even though you want to fix things so badly but if the other party doesn’t then i cant do anything about it. Makes me sad thinking back at it cos maybe it might be my fault maybe it was not. And even though it wasn’t my fault, why couldn’t i fix it. All these questions comes to my mind. But sometimes you just don’t have the answer for it. But i’m getting past it. My friends are making it easier for me and I’m glad to have them.
Stay positive guys. Think of people who really loves you. Treasure them and i’m sure life will be better!
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